Mid-Autumn Festival

It feels great to have a day off here in Taiwan. Why the fuzz? It's just because we don't have that much. Public holidays just don't exist much in this country called Taiwan. Basically, in a year, you'll be lucky to have a week off for public holidays and that includes a few days for Chinese New Year already. So this is a rare and precious time here:)

However, what's intriguing is the tradition that comes along with this festivity. Besides the traditional mooncake-eating, during the mid-autumn festival celebration here, everybody bbqs. Interesting! If you know the reason why they do this, please let me know:). I've been here for 6 years and I'm still clueless about the reason behind this tradition.

Daan-Zhongxiao-Neihu-OZ-NZ

Where the hell am I really going? I think I'm not going to be settled in any place these coming months. I have to keep moving and moving and the biggest problem is that nothing is final. I don't know yet my final destination. Thinking about this is such a pain in the ass...

Bye bye freedom at work!

Honestly, I wasn't expecting that my freedom at work would be cut this soon. I knew that day will come however not this fast and certainly not today. But alas, I went to work today and after an hour or so, the news was delivered to me. The news flash ---> I was going to be transferred to the other office already effective tomorrow. Booooooo........ No more juicy mornings, showtime breaks, sushi/subway/bibimbap lunch, solo concert moments plus movie time... I will even miss the fishy feeding ritual (I know that's a surprise). So sad:(

An official tweeter!

At long last, I finally started tweeting. I signed up long time ago but just officially made use of my twitter account today. I guess I am convinced that my life is really boring and I'm just finding ways to make use of my time.

Anyway, it was quite a different experience compared to facebook. My facebook is officially for friends while on the other hand my twitter account is to follow celebrities. I started following the twitter accounts of some local celebrities and I had fun reading their tweets and their daily activities. Twitter I guess will be one of my chismax source from now on. Twitter time means to kill boredom besides refreshing my facebook account a thousand times in an hour just to see if I had new notifications or any new posts from friends lol.

Happy tweeting to me:)

CAPITAL BORING!!!

I'm such a boring girl.... even a friend calls me boring girl. And it's true. It's been 2 weeks that I haven't seen anybody besides colleagues. Actually, this week, I started working all by myself in the office, so I only get to see them when we are called to have a meeting which is probably once a week or once in 2 weeks. And the past weekends, I just kind of turned myself into a bear or a DH. Hibernate and clean. That's all I do.

In short, I literally socialized with no one these days. I'm not complaining though that I'm temporarily working alone in that office because it is totally awesome. It allows me to do whatever I want to do at my own phase whenever I want to do it. However, that freedom also triggered the usual boring person that I am. Now, all I do is work and watch online movie streaming and Filipino shows besides the normal stuff like eat and sleep. I don't even feel like going out even if people invite me. And if I wanted to, inferiority complex gets into me and I just decide to go on with my hibernation. Probably it is because I don't feel good about myself too at this time. But whatever it is, I need to find a solution and start living the 80's kind of life, when there were no computers and no internet yet accessible to commoners. A life wherein I have to get in contact with other human beings and not just use them as mannequins or puppets in my own world. Earth calling Krisel!!!

Wedding bells...... not for me but for my friend!!!

I was very ecstatic upon hearing the confirmation about the upcoming wedding of my very good friend and his boyfriend. Actually, I knew about this long time ago through her mom but she never told me anything about it. Not even about the part of her having a boyfriend. But I totally understand because she never had a boyfriend ever. Actually, she's my very first Taiwanese friend.

Anyway, when she finally told me, I had to pretend that I didn't know anything although there was one thing that was true.... the happiness that I felt was genuine. I'm really happy for her, for her to have finally met her one....

As for me, I am still waiting for my "d 1"... And while waiting, I just have to continue making "pa-beauty". Also, since my friend asked me to be her bridesmaid/maid of honor, I'm very excited about that. First time I'm going to play this part in a Taiwanese wedding. I can't wait to know what I'm going to wear and also to take great photos on that special day. And what my friend told me is that the last time she attended a wedding, she got the bouquet from the bride then... so now I have to battle for that bouquet and who knows next year or the year after... it's my turn to walk down the aisle... I hope so. Fingers crossed LOL:)

Out of sight, out of mind....

"Here we go again falling in love again falling in love all over...." It's not right and it's never going to be right. So what I had to do is block the connections slowly. Just take it easy. And it did really make sense. It is indeed a process but it's proven that it works. I myself had a first hand experience. I did an experiment for curiosity sake. The span was for a couple of weeks and seems that the result I was expecting happened.

However, I also realized that even if it helped me to take a big step forward, something somehow will take me 10 steps backward. What do I mean by that? Yes, it clearly takes your mind out of something and creates a slight angle shift to your daily life cycle. But then when it's knocking on your back door again, the speed of falling for the bait is 10 times as fast. Hmmmmmm.......

When do we say goodbye to friendship?

If there is something that I always feel proud of, that is having very few good friends that I know I can keep for life. These friends have been tried and tested. In times of adversity they were there; in times when I don't want to say anything, I am not bound to explain things but they would know what's in my heart.

I tried my luck here in Taiwan to find a few more and I was lucky enough to know some in the 6 years that I've been here. I don't complain not having more because in fact, I never thought that I would even find that "some" here. All my life, I never really have so many friends but I would always have a few good ones. Years have gone by, and I still hold the same principle. I still prefer this way, rather than being hounded by superficial human beings.

In the recent years though, after getting acquainted to thousands of people here in Taiwan and probably more than half left Taiwan already, I can say that it would already be a blessing if you find at least 5 trusted friends and friends that are bound to be kept for life.

With the friendships that I've built here, I know that I've been sincere. When I say I am a friend, I know I am a friend. But just recently, some friendships have been slightly shaken. Little did I know that it would be so hard and I would be so affected when it's time to say goodbye to a friend but more so to a friendship. I've given the best shot I've got but to no avail.

So when is it time to let go of a friendship? Does it mean when you say goodbye to a friend, you also have to say goodbye to that friendship? Shouldn't be like that as far as I know. But apparently, it somehow did happen. I just hope that it happens no more.

He likes me.... He likes me not.... I like him.... I like him not....

"He likes me.... He likes me not.... I like him.... I like him not.... "

I'm pretty sure that it's not just me who have had themselves caught in this situation. It might have started long before your elementary days and it seems that it just won't stop. I'll be having my BIG "30" in a few more years and I'm positive that these questions will not leave my head anytime soon. This set of questions has been a constant visitor on my mind and these thoughts have been a loyal pal over the years. I have asked myself these questions over and over again but not even a single definite answer was given.

Anyway, congrats to those who have already unlocked the key to this mystery and good luck to those who are still trying hard to search for the answer just like me!

Golden years + another Decade!!!

A very dark Metro Manila welcomed me last July 14. After a typhoon struck Manila the day before my arrival, there was power shortage everywhere, and a lot of international and domestic flights were canceled. Thank God, my flight only got delayed because if not the plan would be ruined.

The main reason for me going back home was to celebrate my dad's 60th birthday. This was the first time I've kinda pulled off a prank and not inform my dad that I was going home for his birthday. Precious was kind enough to be my accomplice and pick me up in the airport on July 14 so that I can surprise my dad that I'm in Manila the day after. We all suspected that my dad had a hint that we were going home and we organized a party for him, but we all kept mum about it until the very end(as far as I know). Until that very day that I was going home, I was even telling that I was going to check his Goretex jacket that weekend because there was a sale in Sogo. But what he didn't know is that even that one, there was already another surprise awaiting him. My aunt and uncle were very generous to give him the gift that he wanted. We've been checking price tags, styles, brands, shops and sizes, both in Taiwan and Manila, just to find the one he wanted.

Anyway, July 16th finally arrived and everything was great. Well, except for one big drama because of the centerpiece flowers LOL. But nevertheless, it was a job well done as far as I am concerned.

So on my dad's 60th birthday, my only wish is for him to be happy and healthy always because I would need him to live long enough and be part of my life for the longest time. I wish him another set of golden years plus a decade. I just can never imagine a world with my dad not being around. I love you Pa!

Have you seen my face or my palm the least?

Fortune tellers... do you believe in that? I guess out of desperation, at some point, I thought that it would be nice to seek the advice of fortune tellers. However, after the last one (I went to 2 by the way), now I have a different point of view. Well, the outcome of going to one falls into 2 categories: the dream on state or the traumatic state.

The dream on state: Fortune teller tells you that you'll have a wonderful life, that you'll be filthy rich, that you'll meet your prince charming soon, you'll live happily ever after and everything in your face is so nice. Nice to hear right? After that, what have you become? You end up expecting what was told. This lead to my dream on state theory.

The traumatic state: Fortune teller tells you that you'll end up an old maid or if not you'll just end up divorcing your husband, that you are a bad luck, and everything in your face should be changed. Isn't that the worst thing you could ever hear? After listening to all those, you'll end up traumatized that is for sure. A CLEAR traumatic state.

After going to two fortune tellers who happen to look at my palm, my face, tarot cards, crystal balls.... I fell on both categories. I'm such a girl just by allowing myself to go to fortune tellers. Well, for one my dad was telling me how crazy I am for going. But now, I am transformed and I am man enough to say that I will face life without people telling me that I would live a tough life. If it's a tough life that I am bound to live, then let it be. I just don't want to worry for the rest of my life how tough my life would be even if it hasn't happened yet. That is the worst thing I can do to myself.

However, I'm not saying it was all bad. It was sort of a reality check too. I realized that instead of taking everything seriously, we can use those advices to improve ourselves. We can't solely rely on what they see because I still believe that we are accountable for more than half of the life we live. But that is just me. I don't know for you....

World Cup Fever

In my 28 years of existence, I've never been an athletic person. Physically I'm very weak, no stamina, and just sprain-prone. But the irony is that I do watch sports channel and I do enjoy watching sport games unlike most girls. When I was around 12-14, I was watching basketball every single day. I do watch tennis, badminton, 9-ball, gymnastics, cheer leading competitions, ice skating, and the Olympic games.

And now, living in a country wherein I'm surrounded by foreign people from all over the world, there was a slight attempt for the World Cup fever to be passed onto me. But it did fail. I just had a slight fever. More than being hook to the World Cup Games itself, I was more into the camaraderie and fun that these games bring when I do watch them with friends.

In between

If there is something that can perfectly describe my state at the moment it would undoubtedly be "in between". People might ask me why but then I would not even know how to explain why. It's that state wherein it's very hard to distinguish something. Everything is on the bubble, all seems vague, and nothing seems to be definite.

I've always felt that being here in Taiwan is like an escape. I don't know if I'm making the right choice but then I'm still here. I'm working as an international sales but then i don't even know if I should be in that field. I feel old but then I also feel young. I might like a person but then I might not. I'm happy being single but then I'm also longing to be in a relationship. I know I know.... I'm very complicated.

So I often wonder, is this because of me or it's just because I'm me? But then again, I'm pretty sure that the answer wouldn't be like the result of an algorithm or equation. Instead, it will be a series of books explaining everything in literary form.

How many true friends have you met?

All these years that I've been here in Taiwan, I came across people from different walks of life, different cultures, different backgrounds, different races...... None of these matter actually when it comes to friendship. The important things are the open-mindedness, sincerity, and maturity that comes along with the friendship that you offer.

Nobody is perfect and you can't please everybody. I have learned that throughout the years. Not all nice people are rewarded with great friendships and that is but a sad truth. But you can always have an open mind to respect another person and hopefully be able to find someone who will the same respect you as a person.

Sincerity is something that only a pure person can give. Unfortunately, in this world like ours, purity is now shaded with ruthless intentions and thinking of what you can get out of "a/the" friendship. In these times, friendship is offered with the intention of earning something in return.

Finally, along with great friendships include a certain level of maturity. Most of the times, jealousy and gossips become a big issue. It is sad to see how some really good friendships turned to be just a thing of the past now all because of misunderstanding, selfishness and immaturity.

So my question, how many true friends have you met? I can't answer for you but my answer to that question, out of the thousand I have met, I swear mine wouldn't exceed the number of my fingers and toes combined.

Interesting bits + Non-interesting bits

It's been 3 long weeks since I last logged in and so many things have happened. Some interesting but some not so interesting at all. Anyway, I would still share both. Doesn't matter if you find them interesting or not, but I just want to.

Major stories but maybe not so interesting:
1. Finally started working but major stress as I need to close a deal which is something very hard to do. I'm no salesperson. No experience in this field. But I'm trying my best. If it doesn't work out, at least I tried and I learned a lot of things along the way. Maybe I'm going to end up having my own or learning how to manage anybody's business. Let's see and hoping for the best.

2. Almost have gotten crazy with my computer crashing. Well, it has been showing symptoms of crashing down for almost a week and finally it did. I wasn't really surprised when it happened but I was still annoyed the fact that I wont have computer for days and all the hassles that I have to go through. I even did an open surgery to my CPU, just to realize that I'm really not a technician because I couldn't screw back in some things.

However, thinking about it, there were also benefits of not having a computer. I started sleeping really early and I was able to focus on other things. I ended up even doing some plumbing work which normally I wouldn't even think of doing.

Minor but really interesting bits for me:

1. After having Korean bbq for dinner and then a drink at the park, I met the cutest little girl at the mrt on my way home. She was so kilig when I got into the mrt. We were sitting right in front of each other. No words need to be uttered, we just have that connection. She started giggling, and we just smiled and laughed all throughout the ride not even knowing why we were. Her sister beside her was just so curious why she was so happy and excited. People beside me were just clueless. We didn't have to talk aloud but instead we used mental telepathy. She also started imitating whatever I was doing and she was just the cutest. She was around 4-5 years old and she was so white just like snow white. She's so adorable and I couldn't get enough of her. I just fell in love with this little girl. I hope i could keep her. She was almost going to follow me when i was about to get off the mrt but her mom had to stop her of course:)

2. That night when I didn't have my computer, I ended up watching Twilight on TV. It was so different when I watched that the first time in my computer. I fell in love with Edward all over again hehehe... And after watching, I changed the channel and realized that the little girl in the movie Panic room was the same girl as the lead star of the phenomenal Twilight movie. Well, just wanted to share.

Till my next blog post!

Great but final weekend!!!

Weekend started pretty early as I was out 12am Saturday morning. Some crazy fun friends called me around 11pm Friday night and invited me to go out and have some fun. And so I went to Source (a gay bar now a famous hangout of international community). It was nice to see a lot of old faces. It was really unexpected. Some of them I haven't seen for over a year. Then played card games resulting to some friends getting wasted. Bu hao haha... But well, I'm sober so no problem. Then got back home around 4am and slept until 2pm. So started really early but then started late for the next 12 hours.... now only 10 hours left hehehe.

Anyway, nothing else happened from 2pm Saturday afternoon onwards till now (Sunday night 1030pm). All I did was watch tv programs online, chat with a couple of friends (main topic: the cure for my headache hahahah... crazy conversation), and continue watching some movies online. I only got to watch 4 more movies though... Movie titles below:

1. Last Chance Harvey (Dustin Hoffman made me cry especially the scene at the wedding... father-daughter thing always makes me cry)
2. The Spy Next Door (it was really a fun film... great movie to watch with family)
3. Sherlock Holmes (was nice too... although I had to listen carefully because I couldn't understand clearly some of Robert Downey's lines)
4. The Beauty and the Briefcase (didn't get to watch the last 15 minutes of the film bec. of annoying streaming problems)

Well, got to sleep early tonight as the big day is tomorrow. I'm going to try but I might not be successful. My biological clock is now reversed. But I will still try!!! Hoping for the best to be able to go to sleep tonight, to do well tomorrow, and for a smooth and violent-free presidential elections!

Mama... Happy Mother's Day!!!

Once again, it's Mother's day! It's been 16 years now but I still miss her so much. I started playing sentimental songs and couldn't help for tears to roll down my cheeks. I'm such a drama queen at times haha:) But well, it's good. It reminds me that I'm still human and I am a potential actress LOL. Oh no, just funny to write that but have never dreamt of becoming an actress. Not a thick-skinned lady hehehe. I look at the mirror, look at myself, and then the answer is clearly shown there hahahaha.

Anyway, this post is for all the moms out there .... Happy Mother's Day!!!!!

Chick flick movie nights!!!

After regaining my freedom, I've been able to have numerous chick flick nights. It's not like that freedom and watching films are related. I don't know, it just feels so liberating that I am able to do my own thing without any worries. I'm very comfortable and this gives me the good mood to watch films. I just moved here like 8 days ago, but I have actually seen more than 10 movies besides the daily soap operas, reality shows, and entertainment shows that I watch online. Here is the list:

1. It's Complicated (which I highly recommend... Meryl Streep, Alec Baldwin and Steve Martin were great.. love it!)
2. Leap Year (the thing with the narrator was quite annoying to me at first but it grew on me... that means I don't even have to watch but I can just listen and know what was happening)
3. The Back-up Plan (the lead actor was hot that's about it... heheh but it was a feel good film)
4. The Time Traveler's Wife (I kinda like it... it was touching)
5. Up in the Air (quite original plot... George Clooney was hot as always but not a film that I will watch over and over again)
6. Hannah Montana (I like the songs... that's about it)
7. Date Night (a very funny film.. I had a good laugh)
8. My Fake Fiance (unexpectedly a nice film)
9. Valentine's Day (it was cute but a bit forgettable)
10. The Rebound (just an okay film too)
11. The Bucket List (I watched this before but the effing DVD was scratched so I wasn't able to watch the last 20 minutes of the film -- as usual brilliant performance by Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman... they made me cry)
12. She's Out of My League (nothing really spectacular but it's okay)
13. The Bounty Hunter (well, just so so)

To be honest, it's like a world record for me. I haven't seen movies that much since long time ago. I have yet to see these films too but I'm waiting for HQ movie streams or if not some of these films need much attention unlike chick flicks but I'm not yet in the mood to focus:

1. Iron Man 2
2. Kick Ass
3. Remember Me
4. Sherlock Holmes (Yes, it has been a while but I just didn't get the chance to see it yet)
5. Alice in Wonderland

Anyway, the chick flick list will still go on until the end of this weekend before I start my work :) (keeping my fingers crossed that it will be good as it is still a secret until now). I'll update more when I do have the time again.

Feliz... Tan feliz!!!!!!!!

I'm just in the mood for learning today!!! And learning Spanish is on top of my list. I'm ecstatic! I didn't even have to think too much nor exert so much effort but I guess a happy disposition has brought about good changes in my life right now. I'm thrilled about this new found life of mine and I hope it stays like this forever (if such exists). Pura vida!!!!

Realizations 101

Just this past week, I have realized some things (no idea if good or bad but nonetheless something worth sharing I guess). Those days have been a roller coaster ride for me. Some days have been amazing but some have been the worst. Narration below:

1. Good company is everything: Have gone out with different sets of friends and realized how a good company can be everything. The venue is just an added value but the people whom you are with are the most important thing. Even the most stupid thing like shrimp fishing can actually be fun if you're with good company. And it really was. On the other hand, went to a very high-class salsa bar the other day, people dressed up, however it didn't turn out quite the way I thought it would be. Well, not the right choice of people I guess.



2. For god sake, I just want peace and freedom at this time: The most important thing that happened recently though is that I finally have my own personal space. Thank God! However that only points to physical space. My mind is still stressed with family/relatives bombarding me with life's questions and pressures. For once, can I just live a stress-free life? I've been so wanting to have it. I beg to be left alone. I've always been the nice and diligent student, a very hard worker when I commit to something, and a square human being. And with that personality, I think I just skipped the stage of having fun the normal way. But now, I'm given the chance to appreciate life's beauty in a different way --> turning my life a 180 degree turn. It's like an escape I know. But this allows me to be somebody whom I can't be when I'm in the real world (that kind of world that have molded me and will always keep haunting me). For once, I want to live a life without judgment, without pressures, only paradise. If I miss the opportunity this time, I might not be lucky enough to have it again. So is it unfair to want this? I'm only asking for a few months. I hope I'm making the right decision.

Drama-filled life!

What's happening la? That's the recent question that I get these days. The answer I give... My life is just full of drama shits at the moment. I don't know why I even bother thinking about these things. It's not making me beautiful at all instead just giving me tons of pimples and wrinkles. Well, I'm going to have peace of mind and freedom soon. Now, I can even relax at a nearby park with my favorite Beautiful danbing... I'm very happy and oh so happy for myself! Cheerios!:)

Kriz the Dra(2)gon(4) slayer!!!

It's so ironic that there are 2 different creatures in a family --- one the dragon and the other the slayer. I love the theme! Supposed to be fictional characters but tell you they are for real.

So now the finale already happened... Remember I was telling you about somebody trying to hold but about to explode. That day already came. For the big dragon all of a sudden gone crazy. Slamming doors and everything else thinking that she (it) is some kind of god that can rule the planet. Hell no. Even trying to brag about her name but what about. That name doesn't ring a bell. Who's that?! Never contributed anything good in this world so what's the fuzz. The dragon slayer might be so nice for almost 20+ years but not anymore. The DRA(2)GON(4) has just awaken the DRA(2)GON(4) slayer who has been asleep for years and years. The slayer is about to protect herself from having lung cancer and 3rd degree burns. She has to slay the root cause of the cancer and whatever sickness... and that only points to THE DRA(2)GON(4).

Now, she's about to crash you so beware!!!!BWAHAHAHA!!!

Let it be!!!

This is my song for the day.... I guess I'm just a little melodramatic because of how I celebrated my birthday yesterday. But this is what lifts my spirit up at the moment... Hope you like it too.

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when the brokenhearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be

For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah, there will be an answer let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be

I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Yeah, let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom
Let it be

Flirting.... is it a form of art and is it inborn?

I wonder if flirting is a form of art... It seems that flirting can be done in so many ways and people can deliver it differently... sometimes with sophistication and suave but unfortunately others are not so refined. It can make you "kilig" however can also be very annoying at times. So is it or is it not? Well personally, I think it is. And just like any kind of art, I'm definitely no good at it. Alas, I think I am someone born without any form of creativity in my blood or if there is, I can barely even feel it so how would others.

Since I mentioned that I have no creativity since birth and that includes flirting in my point of view, another question is... is it innate or something that is learned over time? Is it like dance? Think of any dance. People can do the same routine but not necessarily all can dance gracefully. I came across this question just recently because some people seem to be naturally born flirts while for others like me... it is something that is so hard to do. RED MARK ALWAYS:(

Living with "the" DRA (2nd tone) GON (4th tone please) LMAO!

This post might very well go on and on as new things keep coming up. But anyway, I will start writing some things before my brain cracks out and I explode because of trying to cease the fire all the time and inhaling the smoke every single time. Well, I will be mum about naming names because it's better to leave this point unsaid.

The thing is that I've been living with "the" dragon for almost all my life but it was just lately that we lived together just the 2 of us. Even a new friend can't help but imagine that I'm living with an "ogre". Isn't that the funniest thing you've heard? I'm not making up stories but she really thought so. I didn't say anything but just the fact that I'm so carefree when she's not around made my friends think like that. Because all the while, I wasn't even totally aware that when she's here, I always just lock myself in my room, rather not eat because I'll be cooking when she's right outside watching TV, try to hold my urine as much as I can, so that there wouldn't be anything to say. Nothing like put your stuff there, clean the thing here, don't do this and that, close your door, lower the volume of your speakers and so on and so forth. I've tried my hardest to talk to a mannequin-like human and what do I get ---> a poker face saying one-liner answers. Fuck! Pardon my word but what the hell is that?! I'm definitely not afraid but I'd rather not light the fire out from the dragon's mouth. Because as you well know, dragons never compromise. They just attack you alive!

So the thing is, I definitely need a fire and smoke extinguisher for this dragon if there is any but too bad there is none. It's like an active volcano that keeps on pouring out lava and smoke every now and then. You don't even know the reasons but it seems they are just always mad at you for no reason at all. Good for you if you don't live somewhere near the area but too bad that isn't my luck as of the moment. The only weapon that I can use now is maximum patience and tolerance. That is what I've been doing but I don't know for how long I can still hold. My threshold is probably somewhere near already or perhaps it already exceeded long time ago but I'm still trying to hold because of some reasons that pertain with emotions. All I can say, I hope I don't die because of lung cancer or 3rd degree burns LMAO.

Unending wants....

People in general are very selfish creatures. I for one admit that I am selfish in my own rights. I have lots of demands, wants, wishes, hopes and it never ends. I might get that one thing that I've been wishing for, gain something that I've longing for, win something that I've been hoping for but after that, a whole new batch of wants will be born.

A very clear example would be that time when I was wishing for time to relax, to travel, to party, to hang out with friends on a regular basis because my world used to revolve with school and work only. I was very busy that I didn't have to think of what to do. And God is good. That wish came true. However, after a couple of months of being unemployed and had so much time in my hands, now I want to be busy again. I never imagined that I would be wishing for that but I actually am.

Well, the fact is that I'm sick and tired of this life routine but it seems that there is no way I can get away from this. Is it possible to stop it? Tell you, I've been trying to do the impossible and every time I just fail. My conclusion, there is no such thing as a finish line when it comes to human's wants and desires POINT.

Korea and KK

In the past month I've been to 4 different countries (sad to say all in the same continent)... Philippines and Taiwan should not be counted but wanted it to seem that I've been to a lot of places lol...

Well, I headed to Korea last March and was glad to see how life is so different there. I went with my dad, the gf (haha bagets), my lil sis, and Karol. I'm in love with that country. Everything is clean and nothing seems to smell may it be public toilets, zoo, or even grass. I've got nothing but beautiful words about Korea and I can't wait to go back again and explore more. Perhaps going there with some more friends would also be a lot fun. I have yet to see so many places and I'm sure I have a lot more to experience in Korea. Two thumbs up!

And just last week (Holy week) I went to Kota Kinabalu. I flew from Taiwan and met up with Pre who flew from Clark. Pre and KK in KK! A lot of firsts for me. First time to stay in hostels, first time to try semi-backpackers style, first time to eat in a wet market, and a whole lot more... If it was winter in Korea, it was definitely summer in KK. Hot hot hot but fun fun fun!!!

I want to break free!

Another insomnia night is hitting me.... It's now past 3:00 am and I'm starting to write something out of the blue. Later is going to be an exciting day! In just a few hours I'm heading to Kota Kinabalu not knowing for certain if my good friend Pre will show up:) But well, I'm going to trust her this time and I can't wait to have an incredible time with her. This trip will be so much different from the rest of my trips because I'm going to stay in hostels for the first time except for 1 day wherein we decided to splurge. The rest of the days, we will be staying in hostels for which the total cost for 4 nights would even be less than that 1 night stay in Shangri-la. I can't wait to see new places, meet new people and most definitely to have an adventure again in my life because I really want to break free in this stressful world.

Red/violet-colored ear!!!

Did I or didn't I start this blog thing because I want to put colors to my utterly boring life?! Well, instead of putting colors to my life, I literally have my right ear now red. The last time I wrote a post was when I was still in the Philippines having my vacation. Then I headed to Korea for a few days(which was definitely amazing but this one would need a whole entire post) but then found out when we came back that my 98 year old grandmother passed away. So schedule was extremely hectic and didn't have the time to update my blog. Anyway, these things have nothing to do with what I wanted to write for today lol:)

Now, I'm back in Taiwan (2 weeks and 2 days already). The first weekend (I arrived to Taiwan Saturday morning) was quite tiring as a good friend was leaving me so we just made the most of our time together:( The second weekend was very relaxing, too relaxed that I was bored to death. It seems that I was in a hibernating mode that I didn't go out for 3 consecutive days. Didn't even realize that there was a sand storm because I literally locked myself inside the house. But the 3rd weekend was a crazy one. Went out just to meet friends but ended up in a pub with some other friends and the crazy thing started. At first, I wasn't going to drink as I usually do, but then I got depressed too when my good friend Inma started telling me about her problems. I said to myself, one glass of beer should be okay. And so I drank that one glass of cold beer and I was fine. But then somebody offered me a so called "plum vinegar + vodka" drink and it was just like juice. And of course, I drank it like juice too. Well, that was what I thought. I was deceived. That drink was very strong. I remembered everything clearly except for one thing. I remembered going up the stairs but was shocked to find myself lying outside the toilet. It's as if I thought that the floor was the couch. Now, it freaks the hell out of me because I don't like not remembering what I'm doing. But well, it was another new experience for me. As my friend said, there is always a first time. Although, I might say that most of the people experience this when they were 18 but not like me who is almost turning 28 hahahah.. Anyway, thank God nobody was there to see me like that. It was a small pub and it was just us friends who were there. I wasn't going to drink anyway if lots of people were there.

But let's get to the climax heheh... Climax of my stupidy!

After that crazy scene of me lying outside the toilet, I went to see my friend so that we can go home. I started saying to her, my ear hurts and I want to puke. She just told me, dont think about that. It's nothing. For a while, I thought I was just really hallucinating. However, when I got home, my right ear had a big bruise on it. And it's red/violet. So there it is, my colored ear but not a colored life.

Nail art or nail surgery?

It's so interesting how simple things can make me extremely happy but the irony is that simple things can also get me so frustrated in life. Does it comes with age? I wonder... Oh well the fact is that I'm just going to talk about nail arts and eventually some kind of nail surgery but then I thought of things like this. So me!!!

However, somehow there is a connection isn't it? Or am I just hallucinating? The deal is that I was fascinated with this nail art thing. Luckily, I'm in the Philippines at the moment and it's so cheap to have it done here. By far, the cheapest I've heard is 60 pesos = 40 NT = 1.30 USD and that comes with cleaning already and not to mention home service. Ain't that a good deal?! So it's my first time to have my nails done painted with different colors and VWAHLAH its already an art! How cute is that?! I had an elmo-wannabe on my fingernails while I had flowers painted on my toenails. I was so delighted how she did that. Everything done within 15-minute time frame.... This can be called a little blessing but I was so happy!

Although my fascination to nail art is nothing compared to the fascination of my aunts and dad to nail care... Oh well that is sarcasm if I didn't stress that so well. They have an addiction to try to get rid of ingrowns (but actually what they are doing is to keep letting ingrowns grow) and to bleed themselves because they say it feels great to do that. Ain't that one of the craziest things you've heard? I'm not even exaggerating that it is an addiction. They do that every single night! My aunt can live without a cellphone but not without a nipper... While I had my nails painted, the girl literally tried to revive their nails. Disgusting as it may sound (and it was really grose as I had the experience of watching how it happens), it was also a delight how an ought to be excruciating thing turned into a happy ambiance. Side-comments from my dad were hilarious, laughter was definitely contagious but the point is that ---> this simple thing definitely made my day!

Inspired to color my life anew

Year 2010... Year of the metal tiger... Start of a new unplanned year again... Start of a new decade... But seems to be the end of my wandering years for now... now I'm set out to color my life anew... I was inspired to write and share my generally boring life with you perhaps so I can add colors to it and make it sound like interesting to begin with. If I can make people believe my life is interesting maybe I can make this imaginary colored boring life turn into real. Through this blog I will share of my life experiences, my happiness and frustrations, of my utterly boring life somehow morphed into a more colorful narration... Welcome!!!